Just another day

Hi Dad

I miss our daily chats.. I miss the advice you use to give.. I miss knowing that you were only a phone call away.. I know that if I try hard enough to solve a problem, you will come to me with the answers.. I just miss you.

As we approach Christmas things stay the same but are vastly different this year. This year it takes all I have not to cry in the stores when I see the things I want to buy for you. This year I have to put on the happy face for Bradley and make this about him and not about the overwhelming sadness I'm feeling.

I'm sorry to say that I have maybe watched 3 Duke games since the season's has started. It's just too hard to to know that I won't be discussing it with you the next day. It's like everything we use to discuss just hurts to much to do.

I have found that I'm more short tempered than I use to be... I know.. Hard to believe but true. I know it's not anyone's fault but I'm just so angry that you are gone. No one, unless they've been there, understand the sadness I'm feeling. I know you would tell me to let it go, mourn and move on, but I just can't seem to get my heart to follow that advice. One day.. Maybe..

I love you

Gwen