Dear Dad

It's been a month since you've died but it feels like a lifetime ago. I miss you so much it hurts. The only thing that seems to keep me going is Bradley. I keep hearing you in the back of my mind telling me "The boy needs you to do this or that. He's what is important." While I know this is true I just want to curl up in a ball and not do anything. But on I will go because it's what I have to do. I have a great group of people who have been so supportive. Without them I don't think I could have made it through some of this craziness.

Bradley misses you like crazy. He will get sad or quiet and ask me why you died. I tell him that God must have needed you more than we did. I told him he can talk to you anytime he wants and you'll hear him.

So... We went to Springfield over Thanksgiving. It was a nice time. Got to see everyone and Bradley got to spend time with his cousins. He had a great time playing with all the kids. We went and seen Mom and Aunt Carol. Bradley always has a great time out there. There are lots of places for a little boy to explore out there. Of course he had to show everyone his Tae Kwon Do moves.

Sorry I missed most of the Notre Dame game last night. I was just so tired from the whirlwind trip. I read this morning about their win. On to the BCS Championship now. Now we just need Alabama to win. That happens and you get to see ND and Alabama just the way you and Jai discussed it.

I just don't know Dad.. There is so much I still needed to tell you but I guess by writing this blog (something you would have never understood since you "didn't speak computer") I can get it out and tell you.

I love you and hopefully as the days go on the pain will lessen.

Love you!!

Gwen